Tuesday Re-mix -
But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.” I Samuel 16:7
I am using these Tuesday Re-mixes for a few weeks to think (again) about addiction to self-reliance and how that addiction is one of the biggest challenges to genuine community which we face in the American church culture.
One of the ways I know I am not yet ready for even the first step of recovery (“STEP 1: Admit that you are powerless over your addiction…that your life has become unmanageable”) is that I am still looking for ways to fix my own addiction. The “fixer” in me says, “If I can trace my addiction back to its inception and therefore know how it started, then I can stop it.” Do you see how insidious addiction is? Even my own attempts to heal myself betray me. I will never be able to admit that I am powerless over my addiction to self-reliance as long as I keep telling myself that I can fix it! And so I am asking your indulgence. Sit back and have yourself a good laugh as I delve into my past to try to figure out where this addiction to self-reliance all started.
For me, I think it started when I was just a child going to Sunday School. We would bring our offering in these little pink envelopes that the church printed for us. They had our names on them. On the front of them, they also had a little checklist of things a “good” Christian does. I could check off the ones I had …